Sick Boy

Dear Deacon

I am sorry I didn't pay it much mind when Daddy told me you didn't eat your breakfast on Saturday. I am also sorry I didn't pay it much mind when Daddy told you didn't eat your dinner either. I could tell you weren't feeling too hot, but I wasn't too worried.

You did, however, get my attention when we returned late on Saturday night to blood in our kitchen and deck. As I yelled for your Daddy, you spewed blood all over our hardwoods. It wasn't long before we were welcoming Sunday morning with you in the ER.

They made us leave you overnight, and gave us a hefty estimate of cost as we walked out the door. All I can say is, thank god for pet insurance!

I was shaking my head on Sunday as I cooked pounds of meat and rice for you. Who cooks for their dog? Well I do, cause I love your face off.

I hate to now break the news to you that you will be returning to your regular kibble tomorrow. It was fun while it lasted!

Love,

Mommy

Giving Thanks

Thankful

Thankful....for Brian. The one who makes me laugh, makes me love, makes me crazy, encourages me to slow down, supports me, and who makes my heart full.

Thankful...for my family. The ones who made me the person I am today.

Thankful...for my Dew family. The new family, the ones I wished I lived closer.

Thankful...for my friends. The ones that make me laugh through all of the tough times, the ones that love me even though I am bad about calling, the ones that the mere thought of bring a smile to my face.

Thankful...for all of my fellow rescue volunteers. The ones that make the long drives, put in the long hours and sleepless nights, the ones who believed in our dream of a giant breed rescue

Thankful...for our jobs. The jobs that drive us looney, but also the same jobs that affords us the nice life that we have.

Thankful...for Bobbie, Sadie, Zach & Deacon. The ones that make me laugh everyday, the ones that drive me insane everyday. The ones that would protect me to their last breath.

Thankful...for hope. The last few years have not been without struggle. It is hard to face yet another holiday season without a baby, but I believe there is a plan. I have to trust there is a plan. I have hope that there is plan.

I hope you make your THANKFUL list and come back to it when times get tough as I often do throughout the year.

Happy Thanksgiving from the BDEW house to yours!

Saturday night surprise

My sister and I married good men. Plain and simple, straight up good men.

The boys planned an awesome night away for us. We stayed at this really cool, ultra modern hotel up in Broomfield, next door to the 1st America Bank Event Center where this guy was playing:

We had dinner at PF Chang's, than had a little cocktail hour in the Zeman room prior to the show. We ended the night in the hotel bar. We had so much fun- really, so much fun.

Thanks, Bri, for taking such good care of me and us.

Surprises

I don't do well with surprises...I always try to "solve" them. A few months ago I saw the same trait in my sister as she almost ruined her birthday surprise from Mike.

A few weeks ago Brian told me to hold Nov 20th as a date night, but wouldn't provide any further explanation. He told me last week that I now need to pack a bag. Of course my first thought went to who would stay with our dogs? But Mr Dew had already taken care of it!

So, we are off tomorrow. It is driving me nutty that I don't know where we are going. I've guessed all over the map, but he won't cave with any details.

I told him he runs the risk of my planning this expensive and fantastic trip in my head, only to be disappointed when we pull into the Super 8...but apparently he is willing to take that risk (ps- Mrs Dew doesn't do Super 8, please and thank you)

I am sure though it will be ton of fun and I love that hubby has taken the time to plan something fun for us!

Welcome Back!

It begins again...casually rolling over to see what time it is and than flying out of bed upon realizing I had forgotten I needed to go to Conceptions today for my 1st (of many) blood draws.

Soon I was on C470, a road I rarely travel when we are not in baby mode. As I approached Broadway I started to feel the nerves. Going to Conceptions just brings an un easy feeling in me. More bad has happened there than good.

As I entered the building, 3 different people stopped to give me hugs. When I entered the lab for the blood draw the gal jumped up and gave me a huge hug, followed by "Welcome Back!". A terrified looking girl gave me a look of horror....I knew what she was thinking "She's back? Why is she back? What does that mean? Why does everyone know her so well? Did it not work for her?!?!?!?"

So, as much as it was a shock to my mental state, as of this morning we have been welcomed back to the wonderful world of fertility treatments. Wish us luck!

Mrs Pounders

In a few short weeks Summer Sciez will be Summer Pounders ( a name that will forever bring a smile to my face!!!)

We celebrated in BlackHawk with a nice dinner and than some gambling. I blew through $20 in about 20 seconds and decided to just spectate.

Congrats, Summer-Time! We've all come a long way together!

Mom

We celebrated my Mom's birthday on Saturday. I forgot my camera...weird, I know. So here's a picture of my pretty Mom at Easter.

I am pretty sure my Mom was put on this earth to be a Mother and a Grandmother. She takes nothing as seriously as she does being mine and Nik's Mom and the boy's Grandmother. She always tells me " I am not right if you're not right!"...so you might imagine she has taken our infertility struggle as bad as we have. She prays and prays. She has the boys pray. She pays for my acupuncture. She tells me all the time she has hope and just knows I will be a Mom someday. Many times she is my only voice of hope.

She has also taken Brian on as her own. Always curious about his job, how he is doing in school, if he has gotten his flu shot and often offers to help us pay for his voice over classes and demo tape. We always tell her "No", but she always says she will always do whatever she can to make our lives better..because that's what a Mom does. I also think she is so thankful someone is taking such good care of her baby girl.

Nik and I realize how close our family is can be "weird" to some people (ie, Brian and Mike when they first joined us), but I don't know where I would be without my family. They are really the backbone to who I am. They are the ones who make me laugh the most. They are the ones who, at times, drive me insane. They are who I turn to when I need support. My mom created that for me and I am so thankful for that.

Happy Birthday, Mom!

Elmo

It has been brought to my attention that a certain 2 year old would prefer my blog music if I added a selection by the hugely successful artist known as "Elmo". I had to search a bit, but am happy to report that there is now an Elmo song on my blog for my favorite niece!