My friend Suz and I both struggle with "Infertility", but for very different reasons. A year ago Suz was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer at the young age of 39- the last year has been tough for her as she struggled to come to terms the fact that she will not be able to have children. She sent this to me yesterday.
What God Meant
Author Unknown
What do I think God meant when He gave me infertility?
I think He meant for my husband and I to grow closer, become stronger, love deeper.
I think God meant for us to find the fortitude within ourselves to get up every time infertility knocks us down.
I think God meant for our medical community to discover medicines, invent medical equipment, create procedures and protocols.
I think God meant for us to find a cure for fertility.
No, God never meant for me to not have children.
That's not my destiny; that's just a fork in the road I'm on.
I've been placed on the road less traveled, and like it or not, I'm a better person for it.
Clearly, God meant for me to develop more compassion, deeper courage, and greater inner strength on this journey to resolution, and I haven't let Him down.
Frankly, if the truth be known, I think God singled me out for special treatment.
I think God meant for me to build a thirst for a child so strong and so deep that when that baby is finally placed in my arms, it will be the longest, coolest, most refreshing drink I've ever known.
While I would never have chosen infertility, I cannot deny that a fertile woman could ever experience the joy that I know awaits me.
Yes, one way or another, I will have a baby of my own.
And the next time someone wants to offer me unsolicited advice, I'll say, "Don't tell me what God meant when He handed me infertility. I already know."
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"AMEN!"
I just got chills reading this.
Thanks for sharing...as you know, I've been struggling with some women's issues and one of my biggest fears going into the surgery in October was "What if I can't have kids of my own after this is all over?"
During the last few months, knowing that you're dealing with that fear too has helped me realize that it's not the end of the world.
I look up to you - and from the outside looking in, you have a wonderful marriage.
Somewhere after I was recovering from my surgery, I realized that if THAT is what I was worried about - having a life and a marriage that is as full as yours is? - I would have a wonderful life.
AND if I can't have kids naturally? Who cares? I mean, really? Well, this poem brings me a lot of comfort - and lessens the fear of the unknown.
Thank you.
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