Happy 1st Finley

Rock your 1st Birthday, Fin! We love you!

ps-I just realized I wore this exact same sweater today too!!!

Thanksgiving

I realize I spend a lot of time on this blog boo-hooing about my life. I think I neglect to mention at the times the innumerable things I am grateful for. Here is my abbreviated version:

1. Brian- the love of my life, the person who puts up with my craziness and complete and utter lack of patience, the person who I can trust with anything, the one I cannot imagine my life without.

2. My parents-My greatest supporters. The ones who pray for me, the ones who love me no matter what, the ones who encourage me not to give up.

3. Nik & Mike- My best friends, my confidants, the ones I can always count on for deep belly laughs.

4. Jack, Cooper & Ella- Our precious niece and nephews. I can't imagine our lives without their beautiful faces.

5. The Dew/Hayes Crew- The far away family we talk of daily.

6. Bobs, Sades, Zachey & Deacs- our fur babies, who literally make me laugh when noone else can.

7. My friends- college, work & rescue- the support you've shown us over the last year has been incredible and can make me cry just thinking about it.

8. Big Dogs Huge Paws- This rescue is a huge part of who I am. The pride I have in what we've accomplished is amazing. It brings me so much happiness and such a sense of accomplishment. We are changing lives, both humans and dogs.

9. For the doctors and nurses working so tirelessly to make our baby dreams come true.

10. For our health, jobs and Brian's new pay raise! BRING IT ON BABYCAKES!

I know I could sit here and list out a million other things- that's a great feeling. I need to remember to come back to this place from time to time to remember how great I really have it.

Weekend Fun & Exhaustion

The boys were with us thsi weekend. Chuck E Cheese Friday night, Astro Boy & Red Robin on Saturday, Turkey Fry Sat night! The BDews are EXHAUSTED!

The boys were in heaven with all the dogs too!

Starting over...again...

We found out yesterday that Baby Dew Attempt #2 did not work.

This is literally the most physically and mentally exhausting journey of my life- 15 months is a really long time to be dealing with all of this crap. To be no further along on November 2009 than we were in August 2008 is disappointing beyond words.

I spent my plane flight home last night wondering how much longer I can keep this up and keep my sanity intact. I wondered how much longer do we actually do this before we throw in the towel? Will we ever be parents? But I also know we can't imagine a life without children either, so I know we will keep pushing, but at what cost?

Everyone tells me "It will happen. Be positive!"---but how do they know?

I have to go back today for another round of bloodwork and ultrasounds to prove what I already know...no baby, just more medical bills to add to our pile.

Winning Powerball, or coming in to some sort of mysterious inheritance would take a 10 ton brick of our shoulders..but I don't think that is going to happen either.

So, we will keep pushing on as we always do. Try to smile and hope people believe me when I say, "I'm fine."

Let me introduce myself

Meet Dot. She's 8, deaf, has bad eyes, big hips and was kept in a tiny dog run by a backyard breeder. He died, and only than did any of his dogs find any peace.

She's been in rescue for 5 weeks. I've been stalking her the entire time. I've been talking to Brian about her the entire time. I've been forcing Brian to look, and than re-look, at her pictures the entire time. Brian and I even laid in bed one night trying to come up with the perfect old lady name because she came in with the name "Mama". We laughed when we came up with Dot.

The opportunity came up for Dot to be transported to Colorado and Brian was kind enough to say we could take her in.

I asked him the other night, "Aren't you so happy Dot is here?", and he replied, "I am happy you are so happy" ( Don't worry Dot, you'll have him wrapped around your finger in no time!And I did notice you in his lap when I came home last night! That's a great sign)

Here is a pic of our newest house guest after Bri took her for a walk.

Tease, Tease, Tease

We received this email and photo last night from my sister and our good friends, The Mulloys, who are vacationing together in Mexico. BRATS!

"Hola Dews! Here is a picture from us and the Mulloys! Our condo is AWESOME!!"

Happy Birthday to Mom & Dad

We celebrated my parents birthday last night at Nik's house in Colorado Springs! Pizza, wine, chaos, kids running everywhere...the typical Munger family event!

Nik and Mike are off to Mexico today to have a belated celebration of their 10 yr anniversary with the Mulloys. J.E.A.L.O.U.S!